Saturday, September 26, 2009

逍遥梦夜

心情沉闷,举头一望,
晴空万里,逍遥情胜平日;
明亮半月,似笑尘世恼;
广阔星空,星光优似近手间。

Sunday, September 06, 2009

我们的友情

5年前我在中六遇到了我这一生最好的朋友们。San一句真诚的“我们是朋友嘛”让我结识了他们。他们给了我最真诚的友情,让哪个孤僻且难交到朋友的我尝试到被朋友关心的温暖,认识他们的我不再孤独,也让我享受了我中学生涯最美好的一年半。

认识了他们,我学会了很多东西;学会了享受美味的食物、学会了享受漂亮餐厅的气氛、学会了对人处事的道理、学会了每个人都有不想说出来的事情、学会了对待女生们的态度、学会了怎么跟别人交流、学会了宽待别人、也学会了不再这么自私。

认识了他们,我体验到了拥有真正朋友的那种幸福快乐的感觉,是一种跟爱情、亲情完全不同的感觉。我们共同分享了很少人能体验到的超越了普通友情但又不是爱情的感觉;那就是知己。对我来说,除了家人,他们在我心里的地位是不可能比较的。

他们,就像是我第二个家人。

05年的农历新年是我最难忘的新年,我第一次跟朋友们庆祝新年,互相拜年,最记得的就是我们在KLCC的Sushi King一起捞生的那一片时光。而从此过后几年,我们每逢农历新年不管多忙,大家都会抽空聚会和在Sushi King捞生。

毕业后,我以为我们会失去联络,因为我过去的朋友都是毕业过后就毫无音讯。那时的我很失落,整天在家里躺着什么都不做。直到我生日前几天,Song突然call我说要他们要帮我庆祝生日…听到了这个消息,我顿时有了活力,心里的失落感也消失得无影无踪。就在那年,我过了我中学以来最快乐最难忘的生日,我最好的生日礼物就是我们度过的时光。

往后几年,我们都忙着读书、做工,而减少了聚会次数。久久一次的聚会和不时的电话、网上联络让我们保持了这段真诚的友情。我们互相了解的程度,是别人无法想象及了解的。

今年九月5号San飞了,19号Yin也要飞了。他们一个去台湾桃园深造,一个去英国Hatfield深造。而我,也大可能明年就飞了,大家都各散东西了。我希望、我相信,就算我们4人之间的距离有十万八千里,我们之间的友情也不会改变,我们也能保持着联络。

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Bachelor...Graduation...

Three years ago, graduation looks far away for me. It always seems so far away until my final semester started which was when I stopped my updates. All the while I have never given a thought about graduation, much less life after graduation.

My eyes were always set on two things; the stars in the night skies which make me a Trek fan and the computers that seems to give unlimited possibilities. I dreamed of getting to them and explore what lies beyond; I dreamed of creating systems which dwarves the giants. And so I focused my attention to books, internet, diagrams…anywhere where I can grab all the knowledge and understanding to fill the hunger for knowledge that burns in me since long ago. I’ve never been so obsessed on studying in my life until when I hit my first programming class. I’ve managed to maintain the momentum I’ve picked up and in the run; I studied the wonders of computer systems, understanding the working behind them and was awestruck by the ingenious solutions applied to cross thresholds in the advancement of computer technologies, all of them which I have been taken for granted all the while.

I tried my best to study, understand, and absorb all that is exposed to me. There are moments when I feel triumphant of my works, there are moments when I was paralyzed by my mistakes, there are moments when I feel friendship, there are moments when I feel lonely, there are moments when I fall in for someone, and there are moments of great disappointment that thrust me into a deepest week of my life; I tried to recover the worse and cherish the best moments and I move on.

My longing for friendship has brought me lots of people whom I call the friends and with my friends and mates, we have went through the worst and depressed moments, the happy and joyful moments which I would never had imagined I would’ve experienced has helped me through whatever that comes to me.

For the past three years,
I have been working my way up to my dream, which I doubt few have the privilege to do so
I have met classmates, course-mates, and friends which I spent my time with
I have moments of searching for a companion…

Three years, I worked as best as I could…
Three years of moments, joyful, motivated, surprised, stressful, down, depressed…
Three years, I have got myself through most that came to me…
Three years of bachelor life means a lot to me…

I had plenty of experience working for my Final Year Project. Excitement of a possible outcome, blunders that held back our process…although it wasn’t a success, but there are lessons learned, there are knowledge we will never grasp elsewhere.

All of these are part of my bachelor life, a savored memory in my life which I will always remember. Though in the end I have failed to reach my ultimate academic goal, but I do not regret my choice to walk this path where I have learned precious lessons which will guide me in the future.

Graduation is a milestone in my life;
It came and went as swift as the shooting stars,
It is the end and the beginning.
The moment my name was announced in the convocation,
I am summoned to the stage be granted my scroll,
I am graduated,
I am ready for the next journey.

Sunday, February 01, 2009

3年,一个想法,一个信念

3年前,当我刚进大学时,我有个想法:
我要从新开始;从新做人,从新开始学习,从新认识别人,从新学习对待别人。

3年前,当我做临教时,我学到一个信念:
做人要不耻下问,努力就有回报。

3年间,这一个想法、这一个信念,一直陪伴我度过每一个难熬的时刻;
每当我遇到新的事情,这个想法帮我克服了我对未来的恐惧;
每当我想放弃,这一个信念就会浮现在我脑海,仿佛在给我走下去的力量;又仿佛点明了照明灯,为我指出方向。

3年间,我的想法、我的信念遇过不少的考验,挑战着我对这个想法、这个信念的坚持。

3年间
我尽量从别的立场去想一件事,
我尽量用不同的态度对待每个人,
我尽量用不同角度去看一件事情,
我尽量去学习放下一些不该在意的事,
但是回头一望,每件事都好像跟之前没什么分别,
我不禁怀疑我到底有没有贯彻我的想法。

3年间
我尽力追赶但却超越不了自己,
我眼白白的看着我的努力被浪费掉,
我很无奈的看着我的努力换来别人的冷眼,
我看着有人没有努力过但得到超越我的成绩,
我不禁怀疑我的信念到底是否正确。

最后一个学期到了,毕业论文截止日期一步步接近,
但我失去了方向,我渐渐失去对这个想法、这个信念的坚持。

在这个新的一年,我希望我可以找回我对对这个想法、这个信念的坚持,也希望大家都有支持你们走下去的东西。

祝大家:
农历新年快乐